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It came like a dream, before it had been dreamed…

Journal Entry – Sunday, Oct 13 Well it has been an interesting day.  We all made it through the anniversary of Brian’s passing, difficult as it was.  I purchased some lovely small urns and filled them with Brian’s ashes knowing that the family would all be here today including Dontae and Will.  I have been […]


It was when my husband passed away that my children first suggested that I get a dog.  One month later it came up again when my house was broken into.  Although I love dogs, I did not want to make any major changes in my life right then.  More recently I put it out to […]

The Best Worst Day

Journal September 21, 2019 Thank you Lord for the best worst day! Yesterday was such a difficult day from the moment I attempted to put my feet to the floor.  There it was again.  Vertigo.  And it was back with full force.  I was shocked.  I had just been to treatment for it the day […]

Love on a Rooftop

This was Brian’s favorite photo of me. He always told me so. It was taken in 1973, when I was just 18 years old. We had moved into our first apartment in Minneapolis. He had left the band to go back to school so he could go into studio recording. I worked two jobs, one […]

Am I To Be Broken Father?

From the depths of my soul, I cried out to Father Mother God. The pain, both physical and emotional, nearly more than I could bear. Am I to be broken Father, I asked? No my child, Mother whispered gently. Broken open my love, not broken. That is much different indeed. Being broken open is a […]

Be careful what you pray for…

Just five weeks after my husband passed away my house was ransacked and robbed. It was Sunday afternoon, November 18th. I’d had a nice lunch with my ministers group and then stopped at my daughter’s to drop off some of Brian’s clothes for donation to the homeless. Upon my return, I noticed my kitchen door […]

We’ve Danced Our Last Dance

So we have danced our last dance for this time around. Save me a spot on your dance card my love, for certainly we will dance again. All of the best things in my life began with you. I love you. (Photo from June 1994, 20th Anniversary and renewal of our vows.)

God Works in Mysterious Ways, It’s true.

It is true that God works in mysterious ways. Today, on this last day of National NF (Neurofibromatosis) Month I wanted to share this with you. In April 2011, my daughter Lindsey asked me to pray for her friend’s little girl. Her name was Madison and she had NF. She sent me a photograph of […]